Well, last Saturday, there was this convention named Chibicon, held at the Galgenwaardse Hallen in Utrecht.. or something..

It was amazing and fun and stunning, there were a lot of things to do, they had sushi, ramune, noodles, mochi!!! and green tea, and it was awesome to look.. more than a 1000 visitors were coming =3

and I had to check them all in, it was so much fun ^-^

I loved it ^-^

I'm not a chainmailreader, but once I saw this, I got curious and once I got curious I had to read it, and once I read it I had to post it somewhere on one of my journals everywhere, and once I posted it I'm gonna have louds of people reading it and once loads of people have read it I... dunno anymore...

Just read xD

FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: Is the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr / Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRIENDS: Never seen you cry
REAL FRIENDS: Cry with you

FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back
REAL FRIENDS: Keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours

FAKE FRIENDS: Know a few things about you
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from
you

FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds butt that left you

FAKE FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say 'I'M HOME!'

FAKE FRIENDS: Are for awhile
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life

FAKE FRIENDS: Will talk bad to the person who talks bad about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock the person out that talked bad about you

FAKE FRIENDS: Would ignore this
REAL FRIENDS: Will send this to all their real friends and hope to
get it back!

If you were killed today, I'm sorry I wouldn't be able to come to
your funeral, because I'd be in jail for killing the person who did
it.

First, I wanted to let you know that I love you to death & think
you are amazing!

Second, if I don't get this back I understand...

I have a game for you. Once you read this letter, you must send it to
14 people that you really care about, including the person that has
sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 messages back then you are
loved

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you can adore

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you..

I have no f*cking idea who that person is..

Dear Diary, I'm in a mad mood today..

This morning, we had christmas breakfast at school and then a musical(with bad vocals btw)
I woke up at 5.30 am and took a shower, decorated my hair and clothes with christmas decorations, made a few sandwiches with cheese, union and ananas(I don't eat meat so I didn't add the ham). Then I packed my bagpack with the other stuff I'd borrowed, the christmas cards I drew(and couldn't scan at my computer) and my hair brush I needed for the hair of the other girls in class...

Well, it wasn't that bad, taking the bus from 6.50 am and being at school at 7.30 am xD not if you LIKE being awake that early, which I terribly don't xD
The musical went bad and worse. (I had taken auditions for dance and music, but never went through it xD they found my voice too... well, in fact, they liked my voice but thought it wasn't usefull and they needed something else... something like little children's voices xD)
There were two girls that walked up the stage, and a huge "awww" went through the audience. xD that was really poor, but the "aww" changed into "eww" when the girls sang and the audience's got their mood changed xD I'm being a bit rude now, ain't I.. well, I'm still going mad xD
When the musical was over, me and my friends met each other at the entrance of our school, and we gave each other christmas cards and wished each other a happy holiday... Then HE walked up to me and my friends.. well, he didn't exactly looked at me, he just ignored me, but I was going like mad. I wasn't blushing luckily ^-^ I would have died in front of my friends.. So with a neutral face I walked up to him and gave him the prettiest card I had drawn of all.. (it looked much like a blending from my deviants "Angel with Violin" and "Cute Angel", but it had more details on a very soft lolita dress, a sweeter face with the cutest eyes I've ever drawn, a pretty violin and very detailled wings.. I was so proud of that.. first, I wanted to give it to my best friend, but I didn't exactly know how my friend's name ended up on a doodle.. but I do know I just wrote HIS name above the drawing... I don't know wether he likes it or not.. I hope he does.. Desperately!!

Well... the first one was nothing, hope this one will be better...

Firstly: I truly desperately miss my best friend. I don't know where she is, but I miss her and her fantastic art works X3 I haven't even got my own inspiration to make my own art woks(and I lost my scanner)

Second: I'm completely out of my mind.. for sure!!! I mean, I am the class presentive, but all the other kids get the stuff I should be doing!! and then there's that stupid Christmas thing going on, people think too fastly in too many wrong ways.. so I ended up being the leadvocal of three different choirs with each eight or ten different songs! I'm never about to learn all that stuff in just four, five days!!

Third: Then there's that boy problem which cannot be solved. There a guy at school I loved from the first class and I still love up until now, the third class... Everytime when I see him, I blush and look away, every time he walks by, I get a very hot warm feeling inside me.. and one day, when in the second class, he smiled to me.. I felt like there were thousands of butterflies in my stomach flying around like mad...
Now you're properbly saying: "what are you waiting for girl, go tell him that you have a crush on him" but that's not the problem...
The problem is this: I already have a boyfriend and we're going out since a month and a week... But the weird thing is... everytime when I see my boyfriend, I get the same feelings as when I see the guy from school!!! And with my boyfriend, I feel so comfortable and I know I can be myself and that I don't have to pretend to be happy when I'm not(but mostly I am, since I love my boyfriend)
and there's more... because, you might have agreed with me now.. I have a crush on those two boys... but... and that's a big BUT...
Lately, an other guy has been talking to me through chat, and we've met up in real once or twice, and he had given me a cd from my one of my favorite bands, Linkin Park, but after those sweet words he had been saying to me and all those cute messages he has been sending to me.. I think I'm feeling more for him than that he only is a good friend... I think I also have a crush on him too..

Really, I fall in love too easy... but it makes me feel good, what brings me to the fourth point:

Fourth: I am often depressed. Very often. And there's nothing that can help me, because for my friends I pretend to be happy, but that takes a lot of energy from me, and lately I've been tire all along that my marks are getting worser and my teachers are worrying about me, which I don't want...
Soooo.... I tried to gave myself energy with those special drinks lately and it seems to be helping... although my mother don't think it's okay if I drink those, so I'm not telling her..
She doesn't know I'm depressed either.. Only a few friends of me knows it.. one who can look through my "happy mask", straightly asked me what was wrong and hugged me when I started to cry, and two others who wouldn't be around me for the next three months so I was assured they couldn't give help when I wanted to commit suicide... Not that I'm up to that right now, but if...

So I'm really fed up with my life at the moment... it has always been me and my problems that are taking the lead from distance and very further... If someone tries to help me, that's okay, but I'm not sure if it would help.. neither if I would make you depressed, so rather don't take a change to give me your thrust or something, I won't take it, neither won't I hurt you...
It's better for me to lock myself up in my room or something... so I won't get the change to hurt anyone else than me....